That's what it feels like, at least. Poor X's breathing got worse over last weekend and his fever just wouldn't quit, so he ended up hospitalized on Monday. In a way it was a relief as by that point I was exhausted beyond tears and knew that he was sicker than I could manage at home. The choking episodes, accompanied by subsequent apnea, were frightening in a way that I would not wish on my worst enemy, and the persistent low-grade fever just gnawed at my gut as all the "what if" possibilities played out in my head. But having recently lived the NICU experience, his hospitalization this week brought a lot of the sadness, anger, and fear flooding back.
X was feeling better by Tuesday - IV antibiotics, an O2 tent, and bronchodilators worked their magic. Seeing my little baby all hooked up to tubes again, though, is not my idea of a good start to 2006. Sweet Cara came to sit and knit with me on Tuesday in X's hospital room and by the end of the day I think we managed to depress her as well. Really, though, is there anything more depressing than a ward full of sick babies and children?
X came home on Wednesday and so far so good - no more choking episodes and his breathing is decidedly more relaxed. He had a recheck on his lungs today (official dx was bronchitis and bronchiolitis) and they are still clear. I seem to have picked up what he had and saw my own dr this morning. Dx is bronchitis as well, but I'm hoping that a weekend of rest, a husband to help out with our now-healthy baby, and a round of antibiotics will have me back to normal soon too. Because I'm seriously done with all the sickness in our house.
Onto knitting... I finished the LTK original soaker and loved the pattern. It was clearly written and super easy - the kind of mindless knitting my psyche needed. With this pattern came the realization that in the past I've always done short rows incorrectly (with no wraps). The short row light bulb having gone off in my head, though, I'm looking forward to more patterns with shaping. Here's a picture of the finished product, knit in malabrigo yarn, color carrot top (LOVE the color!) and contrasting malabrigo in blue (I forget which one exactly) for the tie:
I knit it on size 6s, achieving gauge per the pattern. It's a size small, so I thought X could enjoy wearing it over his diapers relatively soon. So I decided to try it on the little guy and as soon as it was within a foot of him I realized that this soaker is WAY too big. Here it is, just laid across X so you get a good view. He's getting a good laugh at his silly mom and her ginormous soaker:
So I'll close with a laughing baby. It's making me smile, which is a first in many many days. May tomorrow be even better.